The Periodical of Songs

How Far...

2006-04-25T01:00:00.000-07:00

Hey ppl,
Its been another while... been sending my resumes, looking for a job. Went for interviews. And actually got a JOB but i rejected the offer becos it was rotating shifts....and the pay wasn't that attractive...

So took up a 3-week part time job for now. Everyday 9-6pm doing boring office work... my eyes are really tired just looking at the computer screen. Can come to msn to chat with me if ya free. I may sneak into msn to chat. But not when the boss is around.

Well, didn't really get to meet up with him since school end. He got a part time job and so we only meet once a week. No difference from when NS begins... I told him not to regret when it really begins... Haha... but hopefully we will get some time together b4 he goes in.

I was just wondering to myself... how far can someone's understanding go... how far can u give in to someone... how far is the limit... how far can u continue to hurt yourself b4 something happens? haha that's a lot of how far... some things been happening that is making me have such thoughts. but i guess the answer will arise eventually.& i hope when the answer arrives it wun be a disappointment.

How can u give in to someone so much that is hurt yourself? That u still have to pretend its not hurting u? haha... is it being matured? Or just being silly...

I always had such a dream that one day when i wake up everything will be solved and everything will fall into place. That someone will help me solve them haha... wat a wishful thinking... but now its not the time anyway to solve anything... Well, i hope everyone can fall into their desired places eventually... :) LOve ya lots! Nite nite!

Exams....

2006-02-25T05:50:00.000-08:00

Hey ppl,
I'm back again... haha well, been having exams. Really must force myself to study.... luckily i am forced out of my house to study in another quieter and less distraction place. If not i really dunno how i am going to study. If stay at home sure will be distracted by so many things.... ;P

Then, ty & i made a stupid rule. that we are not going to meet until we finish exams on 3rd march. hai... its his bdaay too haha so not too bad. We are not suppose to call each other also. Just 10 sms a day. However..... that is too much for a new couple. Haha, so in the end still got talk on the phone every other day.

These week has really been so taxing on me that will have giddy spells... hai... i need so super powerful tonics. :P okok, that's all for now.

Sometimes, ironically when u are happy, there's nothing to write about.....

JIA YOU FOR THE LAST 2 Papers!!

不得不爱

2005-12-22T05:43:00.000-08:00

我从来没有想过
爱情会变得如此无奈
是命运吗?

难道难过
是上天的安排
没办法
天天的每天的心思
到底由谁来陪

我诚心你诚意
但周围扰人环境
始终让我们无法
在这里自由相连

我精彩你发呆
两颗心不安的摇摆
应该有的未来
是否真的那么的无奈
期待舍不得再伤害
看着你哀愁要我如何
怎么承受面对

不得不爱
否则快乐从何而来
不得不爱
否则悲伤从何而来

不得不爱
否则我就失去未来
好象什么尤其不能自己很失败
可是每天都过的精彩

天天都需要你爱
我的心思由你猜
I Love You
我就是要你让我每天都精彩

天天把它挂嘴边
到底什么是真爱
I Love You
到底有几分说得比想像更快
会不会有一点无奈
会不会有一点太快
可是你给我的爱
让我养成了依赖
心中充满爱的节拍

All i want for Christmas....

2005-12-22T04:07:00.000-08:00

All I Want for Christmas.... is U....

Hahax..... well but it seems impossible cos we leave so far from each other. Well, i'll be going over to my aunt's house for X'mas. Will be keeping my penang cousin company for saturday onwards. So dunno when will ever get to meet him again... Well, wat to do..... maybe we are really not very fated to be.... Hope God is not making a fool of us... So sick of it... having to leave so far apart... wish that i didn't love u so then it would be much easier. But well its too late :) Ahhhxxx......

Just had Chalet on tuesday. WOw, its been a long time since i actually went and stayed in one. IT was pretty fun with all the games and food. WAhhhh... we really ate a lot. I feel i've ate a lot. But lose to Germsy man.... She made sambal SAUSAGE for me.... its so yummy.... then it rained in the middle of the night.. so stupid. Then for the next 24hrs i got a little grumpy. I was very irritable. WHen i dun get enough sleep that's wat happens, so better dun annoy me during the period. Hahaha... but after that i was fine.

I went to Mirelle's house to beautify her this afternoon. She had a dinner to attend. Haha pretty proud of my work. SHe looked real pretty. Did her hair and make up. Later after her dinner she's picking me up to go over her house to sleepover. So cool rite? A gal's nite!!! HAha... well but we are good gals, wun go clubbing or drinking... hmmm dunno wat we will be doing also... haha maybe have a hearty talk. Then tml going out to celebrate Kasey's Bday.

Wow... seems like i will be very busy. Will be missing him over wherever i am.... Sadx.... Who knows maybe can get to meet him next week. I will bring my cousin to meet him next week :) :) :) HAHA...

Well EVERYONE OUT THERE MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR! (just in case i dun update my post, so all in advance :P)

Haha, no news means good news.

2005-12-13T03:13:00.000-08:00

Hello, haha no news means good news... ever hear of that.

Haha sorry disappeared for like 12 days. Not too bad after my 1 year disappearance. Anyway the past week has been great.

Managed to go out with my best fren, Wei Chieh just because he's gf was out of town... hai... wat to do. But it's okay managed to catch up pretty good. He has always been there for me, even if we dun communicate all that often. Great to have ya as a pal!!!

Then went out with tai yuan too. Even though it was only a few hours, we had a great time on sunday. Went out shopping and he bought me a bag again. He's really showering me with gifts... Haha i always wanted a backpack. and really like this back pack. Hahaha, even though it makes me look like a high sch gal. Well... who cares... :P That day we were both lost at to getting wat gifts for each other on Christmas. So just wandered around he bought the bag for me and i treated him to starbucks cause he wouldn't let me get him something.

Oh... then its a fresh week today... and i'm already so stressed with REPORTS. Especially fyp.... its really killing us. must hand in draft hopefully by thursday. How to..?? We've got 2 quizzes this week lei...

Plus my cousin arrived from penang yesterday. She staying at my aunt's house now. Really wish to go over and see her. But tied down by so many sch work. how to go over. I really need a computer to do my work.

And i can foresee a storm coming my way. About juggling my time with my godma, cousin, tai yuan, FYP, reports, assignments, quizzes.... Ahhhhh.... *breathe in & breathe out..... Pray!

Well, i really hope all of us will be able to survive through our year 3!!! JIA YOU PPL!!! Looking forward to our chalet!

P.S: Thanks Wei chieh for volunteering for get me dinner when i said i was hungry. U are a great papa!

We've come to this.

2005-12-01T06:16:00.000-08:00

Wow... can u believe it. I actually managed to meet him 6 days in a row (even though didn't meet him today). Haha maybe that's y my blog was a little quiet this few days. So actually making some noise does help. But after all that i really feel we've grown closer again. We've managed to solve this prob. and learn from it. Feel so much closer to him. I managed to take a look at his training too. Finally i feel i'm part of his life in a way.. :P

I'm glad at where we are now :) Thanks for all the support my frens have shown me.

And thanks dear for getting me my new shoes after my poor old brown little shoe spoil.... i'm really happy with my new shoes.. however, i dun seem to have any to match them.... have to change/ add another style into my cupboard again. Haha.... i have formal office wear, to lady-gal wear, to smart casual wear, to tough wear and now coming soon sporty wear. The world is such a confusing place. People around always wants us to change to be the way they are comfortable with. How long can u play the role of a chameleon? Adapting to different ppl, different situations??? But wait a minute, isn't that wat we've been doing all our life? Haha... wat i'm i talking about?? I dunno okay i'll just stop babbling.... Just finish compiling Micro E for HOTA. haha so last minute.

See ya in sch ppl!

Good to know...

2005-11-27T21:20:00.000-08:00

Just like the lyrics of the song " Even if you cannot hear my voice, I'll be right beside you dear..." That's wat i want to let u know.

Today i'm glad u came over to study at my house, even though my whole family was home. Real brave of u... Actually it isn't that scary... Even i can do that y can't u? Haha... Thanks for buying lunch over today.

Was pretty mad at you for making me feel so down these few days/weeks.... Then was a little cold to you today even though u came down. Cause i know the prob will still be there... But just now when u told me u would give up something u love to do for me... I was really happy... That's all i needed. I dun want u to give up something u love to do. That's all i needed to know. Thanks... I wun make any more noise anymore from now on.... :) U happy I happy.

I believe God will plan our path for us. No worries! ANy way, i feel better already. Flu bug is leaving me alone finally... Thanks Wei Chieh for your advice and Help! Friends FOrever! Your my best BUddy dude!!! (xka) ;P

SNOW PATROL - RUN

2005-11-26T22:46:00.000-08:00

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time
I doI know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear

We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

There it goes again...

2005-11-26T22:09:00.000-08:00

Hey ppl, sorry my previous blogs have been a little upsetting... just to let ya know i've talked to him and let him know how i feel.... Hopefully the same prob wun arise again... But i think he still dun get wat i mean..

Is it he can't give me wat i want or i'm I asking for too much? He has time for anything else in the world but for me... Maybe he just dunno how to priortise his time. Well nvm that, caught a flu bug. Came home early from Angie's house to rest, been taking FEBS- its really good. Dun like the taste of Panadol... Hopefully can recover by monday.

See ya in sch ppl!

Same cycle...

2005-11-23T23:32:00.000-08:00

Hai... wat a day... Tot today can meet again... but to my disappointment another round of stupid emotions...

Last night talked to him about our prob. But it ended pretty bad... like me saying "okay if no time, why not just meet once a month better?" then i guess he knows i wasn't in a good mood and ended the call. Then this morning i msged him to explain to him i wasn't trying to make things difficult for him. Its just that I care for him so i'm upset why we can't meet... we've been meeting like once a week. And this has been dragging for 3 weeks... Everytime he will tell me next week will be more free.... but its nv the case... I'm getting pretty sick of this situation... I dunno how long more this is going to drag.... Even if i try to talk to him, tell him i'm upset about not meeting... the prob will still be there... is that... "He still dun have time for me..."

If i make more noise he will just think i'm being unreasonable... wat can i say then he will understand wat i want is just something so simple.... Just some time with him... But well maybe if i just pull thru this period, after he's FYP end everything will be fine...

Nv again...

2005-11-21T23:16:00.000-08:00

How can when just yesterday i felt u were the best person on earth and yet feel like you're the worst today... I smiled in my dreams yesterday but i'm so upset today... Nv again...

I finished my practical at 4pm, so decided to wait for him. He finish his lesson at 5pm. But after waiting for an hour, the call i got from him was he saying " U wait for Wat..." At that moment i wanted to slammed down the phone and walked off home. I felt so stupid, I just thought to find any opportunity to meet even for just an hour or so. He's been so busy... if i dun no these we can get to meet once a week at most...

Earlier in the day at bout 1pm, he was looking for me, but due to my stupid hp poor reception at library level 1, i couldn't see his calls and msg. So at 2 plus when i saw them, i immediately replied him. And msged him 5 times after that to tell him i was going to wait for him after my practical. But he didn't even replied once, until that call at 5pm. He needed to go jurong pt to get his tkd stuff. He was in a rush already and couldn't even made the trip to queensway. Got to go home eat dinner and reach tkd at 7 plus. But couldn't he have msged me earlier he couldn't meet me.... it was damn cold today and i didn't bring my jacket becos i got my lab coat already.... and after waiting i got such a reply....

I can't blame him cos we didn't plan to meet in the first place. Since he dun mind not meeting then i shall follow my plans too. Wat for being so anticipative and hopeful to find chance to meet... Nv again will i wait for him in sch again. Not going to put myself thru such feelings. But why couldn't he just look at his hp from 2 to 5 pm...?? Hai.... Just let time goes by...

Two ghosts.

2005-11-20T18:48:00.000-08:00

Two ghost met and both chat about how they died.
1st ghost : how u died?
2nd ghost : i died of cold
1st ghost : how does it feel when dying in cold?
2nd ghost : actually i was imprison in refrigerator. at first i was shivering, then my whole body started to frozen, later i felt the whole world was dark and i died. fortunately, i died with not much suffering.
1st ghost : what a pity for u....
2nd ghost : how about u? how u died?
1st ghost : i died of heart attacked.
2nd ghost : i see, how u had a heart attacked?
1st ghost : actually i found out that my wife is having an affair with another man. one day when i came back from work, i saw a pair of male shoes outside of my house. then i realized that the guy was in my house with my wife. when i rush into the bedroom, my wife was alone. i must find where that man is hiding. so i search the house, i ran to downstairs, look in the storeroom, but the man was not found. so, i ran upstairs and search the wardrobe, but i found nothing. because i was too tired of running, i got heart attacked and died.
2nd ghost : why not u look for the man in the fridge? if you did, both of us were alive now!

Wat a cooling day...

2005-11-20T18:41:00.000-08:00

Wow, today's really cold.... real nice weather for sleeping... haha... well i had my amount of sleep today. woke up at 1pm :P haha its been a while since i can wake up so late. After waking up, sweep the floor, hang the laundry then eat lunch. After all those then i did my datasheet due TML.... haha... still haven't finish but decide to come my blog to update.

After yesterday talk with him, it really made me think thru certain things. I've been quite a little kid about he always having no time for me... but actually i'm not being very understanding too. So since he's got to do his stuff and work. I too have plan to do my own things in the time waiting. Haha... even made my timetable(in my mind) to do wat each day instead of waiting aimlessly each day. Real happy i thought thru, made me a happier person haha... I think this is some kind of grown ba... learning to adapt. Anyway we are students its good to be hardworking :)

Haha, got some jokes to share with u gals...

The Egg IS BACK!!!!

2005-11-17T21:25:00.000-08:00

Hey WORLD!!!! I'm back.... finally... i know i know after ages.... hahaha.... did a disappearing act... maybe u all dun ever bother looking at my blog again or even delete me from your links hahaha but i's forgivable.... my fault :P

Hmmm wat made me revive back is becos... i wanted to del my blog initially... then i started reading my pass entries for the last time... then.. suddenly felt guilty and suddenly got mood to write again... :) I'm a strange gal... well...

After reading my previous entries, it really made me tot back... how far i've came from that little gal to where i am now. I'm really very contented with everything i've gotten now... It's really fateful, the way the things unfold itself. Remember the Mr. MM guy??? haha... if u read my previous entry u will know. Now we've become really close and he makes me really happy... :)

Since then so many things had happen... the way friendship changes, relationship changes, the world changes... life is full of surprises.. its a ride that we all have to see thru... So no matter how hard it may get... All my gal friends out there WE have to Perserve On..!!! Stay tune for my next entry, promise it won't take 1 year... :P

Bright Side OF Life...

2004-11-12T16:00:00.000-08:00

We should always look on the brighter side of life... no matter how hard it may seem at difficult times... but its in difficult times we should look on the brigther side of life even more. For every sigh we make... a fairy of love dies... So.. I've learnt tat sometimes i let myself drown into the darkness... Luckily.. there are angels in our lifes tat enlighten us now and then... so we would be able to see clearly again.. Thanks my pal.

Hmm.. yup I actually pretty happy with my ITP. Cos... at least i know wat i'm suppose to do.. Haha... Yingxi and i are put together.. luckily.. and furthermore itp's in sch.. so we dun have to adapt to a new environment... tat's good. Hmm... but also got it's disadvantage... now we will really not know.. wat's it like in the real working world... Haha.. :) Next itp then.
We get to make body foam, shower gels and facial foams... pretty cool.. but at the end of the day... Ying Xi and I have the Cleanest Hands of the Century... try washing your hands for 6 hours least... Haha... :P learnt a bit of its synthesis.. so it's okay.. then we do get offs... whenever the lab's closed... *happy!

Then... on sunday evening(7th nov).. went for Charlotte's BBQ. Was her birthday celebration... turned 18 already. Wanted to buy FCUK shirt for her until i saw the prices...$$$ my goodness 1 shirt cost like $50. Hmm... so i bought an pencil box and bracelets from ACCESSORIES instead. Cos she always wanted a pencil box from there... so better get something she likes... Poor Germs and Carmen.. accompany me walk from WISMA.. to SHAW... to... TAKA... haha... thanks PALS.... :) then they went to eat at Sizzlers.. and i went off... where did i go after tat??? Hmm... I can;t remember oh no... sorry... must learn to blog more often... see forget wat i did...

Ahhh... Really.. want to KBOX Soon.... ppl... if going tell me k??? I wanna go... been quite bored la... at home and stuff....

Then tuesday Val and I went for TC. We read scripts by Pao Kun... they are pretty deep.. I personally like the Silly gal and funny old man one... haha.... Then... Beng reprimanded us about not turning up for his student's performance (NUS).... It reminded me of something... and i was pretty down for a moment... But he then.. liven up to mood and wanted us to pretend as a jellyfish. Jellyfish swirling in chocolate... Jelly Fish flush down a toilet... Jelly Fish playing Peek-a-boo... he's really a great guy... Beng...

hmmm had my driving lesson on wed... went pretty bad... I dunno wat gotta over me... i Kept making turns at the wrong speed... Suppose to shift from 3th gear to 2th.. but i kept turning at 3th.. then he got a bit.. harsh... hai.. 1st time he ever needed to scold me.. dunno why.. i was like tat too...
After the lesson got pretty upset... dunno why... then at first i tot Zell on board to ship le.. then wanted to msg him for fun... telling him how i wish he was around... but in the end... he was still in S'pore... and he returned my msg.. oh my... :P he going on board next week... Then i got pretty depressed... maybe over the past week.. Angie.. has been giving me a lot of stress... ahhh.. the stress... almost suffocating... but Zell.. sort of advised me.. and I really felt better le.. Thanks to him... Really... I tell myself i should look at the brighter side of life... not everything's my fault. not I can't control things tat happen... I should thinking too much.. I think too much sometimes... whether doing this is right... if i do this would i hurt someone... if this.. if tat.... haha.. u noe.. should stop and slow down for a while...

I tot thru a lot... Think i've Matured even more... good thing... I would anyhow want to cry in public le... won't let it repeat... Only allow it once. hehe... then also tot thru.. must move on le.. no more lingering around for Zell.. le.. if he like me.. then like.. if not.. i won't wait le. :) Jia you!!! No use anyway. Goody :)

Thanks Tingz for your help in MS. Really enjoying the game now.. :) Take Care PPl!!! AND must JIA YOU with all your ITP... dun get too down about it!! * HUGS

~What Do Angels Look Like?~

2004-11-12T15:59:00.000-08:00

Like the little old lady who returned your wallet yesterday.
Like the taxi driver who told you that your eyes light up theworld, when you smile.
Like the small child who showed you the wonder in simplethings.
Like the poor man who offered to share his lunch with you.
Like the rich man who showed you that it really is all possible,if only you believe.
Like the stranger who just happened to come along, when youhad lost your way.
Like the friend who touched your heart, when you didn't thinkyou had one to touch.

Angels come in all sizes and shapes,all ages and skin types.
Some with freckles, some with dimples, some with wrinkles,some without.

They come disguised as friends, enemies, teachers, students,lovers and fools.
They don't take life too seriously, they travel light.
They leave no forwarding address, they ask nothing in return.
They wear sneakers with gossamer wings, they get a deal ondry cleaning.
They are hard to find when your eyes are closed,

But they are everywhere you look, when you choose to see.

Reborn

2004-10-22T16:10:00.000-07:00

Hey ppl,

Been out these few days. Hmmm this week was suppose to be our study week.. but hehe I've been a naughty gal.. haven't even started studying...Hehe and i'm blogging it down now.. haha...

Well... Monday I busying studying for my Japanese Exam in the evening. Thank God I know how to do this time. Because the last exam I didn't have time to study and failed it. Hehe.. think i can pass pretty well this time. Then tuesday went out with Kasey(my old classmate) to get a present for Mirelle!!! Her birthday this Saturday... Got her a POA blouse $39. And that day i finally found my denim skirt ppl... hmmm will be wearing to school next sem... lol... cannot imagine right?? Hmm i a bit shy... Cos since YEar 1 i have nv worn a skirt to school B4.. ahhhh...

Wednesday when to school for a retest and went to KBOX to sing with me Cousin.. Wow... real fun. Thursday when out to celebrate Mirelle birthday!! Went to Orchard to "Gai gai"... hmmm I bought another FOX blouse. Just on monday i bought a jacket and blouse from FOX. I'm totally in love with the FOX jacket. haha... Really like the clothes i got too..

Anyway I'm currently watching MArs now- Zai zai & Da S. Really nice show.. here's the lyrics of it's OST. Juz LOve It!! IF ya wanna watch the MV just come find me on MSN k?? I send u. Take Carez Ppl.. and better Start studying liao...

(-MARS-)

2004-10-22T16:05:00.000-07:00

零(戰神Mars片頭曲)作詞：柯有倫　作曲：鍾國輝　編曲：鍾成虎唱：柯有倫

從來不相信我的世界可以有多完美　痛苦寂寞還有一些疲憊
不允許他人隨意進入我的零度空間　寧願孤獨懶得再去想誰
*
兩個人一起是否只是得到一種安慰　掙脫過去然後忘記一切
沒想過有天我的結局忽然全部改變　誰會抓住我的無力雙臂

怎麼會哭(誰錯誰對為誰抱歉)
不會再哭(誰錯誰對為誰憔悴)

走入零度空間等到一切分裂　就算愛的危險我們一起面對
來不及的防備沒聽過的誓言　要我怎麼學會多了愛的明天
*
走出零度空間終於一切分裂　就算愛的很累我卻不會後悔
放下所有防備一切都無所謂　逃出黑暗世界開始新的明天　新的明天**

~Ode - Intimations Of Immortality~

2004-10-22T16:00:00.000-07:00

I

There was a time when meadow, grove, and stream,
The earth, and every common sight,
To me did seem
Apparelled in celestial light,
The glory and the freshness of a dream.
It is not now as it hath been of yore;--
Turn wheresoe'er I may,
By night or day,
The things which I have seen I now can see no more.

II

The rainbow comes and goes,
And lovely is the Rose,
The Moon doth with delight
Look round her when the heavens are bare;
Waters on a starry night
Are beautiful and fair;
The sunshine is a glorious birth;
But yet I know, where'er I go,
That there hath past away a glory from earth.

III

Now, while the birds thus sing a joyous song,
And while the young lambs bound
As to the tabor's sound,
To me alone there came a thought of grief:
A timely utterance gave that thought relief,
And I again am strong:
The cataracts blow their trumpets from the steep;
No more shall grief of mine the season wrong;
I hear the Echoes through the mountains throng,
The Winds come to me from the fields of sleep,
And all the earth is gay;
Land and sea
Give themselves up to jollity,
And with the heart of May
Doth every Beast keep holiday;--
Thou Child of Joy,
Shout round me, let me hear thy shouts, thou happy Shepherd-boy!

To Be Continued

~Life~

2004-10-15T22:15:00.000-07:00

LIFE! I know not wat thou art,
But know that thou and I must part;
And when, or how, or where we met,
I own to me's a secret yet.
But this I know, when thou art fled,
Where'er they lay these limbs, this head,
No clod so valueless shall be,
As all that then remains of me.
O whither, whither dost thou fly,
Where bend unseen thy trackless course,
And in this strange divorce,
Ah tell where I must seek this compound I?

To the vast ocean of empyreal flame,
From whence thy essence came,
Dost thou thy flight pursue, when freed
From matter's base encumbering weed?
Or dost thou, hid from sight,
Wait, like some spell-bound knight,
Through blank oblivious years the' appointed hour,
To break thy trance and reassume thy power?

Yet canst thou without thought or feeling be?
O say what art thou, when no more thou'rt thee?

LIFE! we've been long together,
Through pleasant and through cloudy weather;
'Tis hard to part when friends are dear;
Perhaps't will cost a sigh, a tear;
Then steal away, give little warning,
Choose thine own time;
Say not Goodnight, but in some brighter clime
Bid me Good morning.

Revolution

2004-10-15T21:50:00.000-07:00

Hey gals, how are ya all?? Phew.. finally we got all our reports done on time. Mad rush today.
I can feel everyone's sadness one way or the other. Everyday we go to school, we are around so many people, so many different situation we were put in... through each second of a moment i can see moments of sadness, tiredness, anger, grieve, pain, boredom, happiness or love. I catch and breathe in all your emotions hoping that God will bring U all some peace at the end of the day.... May u all have at least a comforting sleep that cuddles u in your darkest hours. Love ya All!!

Haha.. hmmm felt much better after staying over at my cousin's house, in Woodlands. After sch on wednesday meet up with her for dinner, then sort of told her everything and ended up being persuaded by her to sleep over... Hehe.. So nice to be with her.. it's been a while she having to prepare for O level's and she living so far away from me. So that night we had ourselves a little drink... Hehe.. she was so worried that i would change myself for him. BUt i told her it wasn't for him but for myself.. then slowly she agreed. Haha.. when i bought the drinks they asked me for my IC.. oh my.. really dun look old enough so funny... Then we each had a bottle. Tried ( 5.0%) and (5.3%) ones. Really taste quite nice. I felt very comfortable maybe cos she's my cousin... of all ppl she will understand me the best. Besides she had a similar experience as me before. I got a bit "Happy" but was awakened by eating Yogurt Ice--SO SOUR.. haha Then we walked the Night market.. and bought ourself a Ramly's Special Burger!!! YUM!!! But the one i ate from PEnang was even better. At night we cuddled into one Super-Single bed and listened to the Discman till we fell asleep. Slept really well that night.

Anyway, i've decided to be a little stronger. Can call what i did on wednesday a way of reliefing my feelings... I messaged him telling him tat from now on, if he doesn't msg me i won't bother him anymore. To put a stop to my useless actions. No use fighting against it. Haha.. i'm fine ppl. Will still feel upset once in a while but with all ya around i really feel much better. MAybe it's becos we always look out for each other right? Haha i'm a person who believes in FAte and Destiny that kind of stuff so... I'll juz have to wait for the right one ya..?? :) And besides I can't let all the ppl who CARES for me down right gals?? Hehe...

Love ya all!!! GOd bless Ya for all Your exams!! Work HArd!!

~The Smile~

2004-10-12T20:00:00.000-07:00

There is a smile of love,
And there is a smile of deceit,
And there is a smile of smiles
In which these two smiles meet.

And there is a frown of hate,
And there is a frown of disdain,
And there is a frown of frowns
Which you strive to forget in vain,

For it sticks in the heart's deep core
And sticks in the deep backbone---
And no smile that ever smil'd,
But only one smile alone,

That betwixt the cradle and grave
It only once smil'd can be;
And, when it once is smil'd,
There's an end to all misery.

Summer's Harmony...

2004-10-12T19:30:00.000-07:00

After all, everything's fine. Dun worry ppl. I'm a brave gal. Good friends is a good thing too. Maybe none of us can couragous enough to take up the challenge. Or maybe it's him.

Hope you all like this new verse, "The Smiles". Hmm... not very chim right?? Actually got another one also very nice... but that will be for my next entry.. Today i reached home so early lei... 5 plus... Cos no TC. At least can rest a bit first b4 i study later. Opps.. i haven't study at all for BIA ICA tml.. MY GOD!! Okay will start after this. hmm maybe not after this, after i chat online, then bath, then watch tv..then wander around... then then study... Haha.. :P

I've decided to be more bad gal le..
not in the bad way.. you all shall see... haha.. maybe not.. think more rebellious?? Think must be stronger dun let ppl bully right val?? okok.. U wat? the first step was to know a new friend from friendster. He's my friend's friend la.. so not so bad..
hmmm He's not bad.. very sporty, won the title Mr. MM. Haha... hmmm i crazy le ma?? Friends only ma.. Must have more confidence in myself.

After Exams we must GO out K gals!!! Go kBOX, GO Sentosa, Go Shopping!!!! but got ITP... hai... wat a bucket of cold water... (-_-)'' Hmmm dunno wat to write already. Next post then.. see ya! Oh ITP i got posted to Ajitrade Pte Ltd- Ajinomoto brand. not bad. Go see if you all want http://www.ajinomoto.com.sg/index.html

~The Birds~

2004-10-10T22:20:00.000-07:00

He: WHERE thou dwellest, in what grove,
Tell me Fair One, tell me Love;
Where thou thy charming nest dost build,
O thou pride of every field!

She:Yonder stands a lonely tree,
There i live and mourn for thee;
Morning drinks my silent tear,
And evening winds my sorrow bear.

He: O thou summer's harmony,
I have liv'd and mourn'd for thee;
Each day i mourn along the wood,
And night hath heard my sorrows loud.

She:Dost thou truly long for me?
And am I thus sweet to thee?
Sorrow now is at an end,
O my Lover and my Friend!

He: Come, on wings of joy we'll fly
To where my bower hangs on high;
Come, and make thy calm retreat
Among green leaves and blossoms sweet.

Devils and Angels

2004-10-10T22:15:00.000-07:00

Devils and angels can never be together. How can we be so different and yet share the same feelings.... Like a couple in a show... tat's an exaggeration.. haha.. well it's always best to be good friends. At least i know we had some nice times together. If only u were abit more like me or I more like u a bit more... maybe things would be much simplier. Duo xie lau tian ye right?? haha... You were drunk when i told you everything.. you replied.. and say you too feel the same way... but why... the words of a drunk can't be true isn't it?? Or is it the honest of words?? You said the difference between us is the reason tat you are holding back many things between us. You said you are afraid of ruining me.... tat's why you keep your distance....
haha God only knows... We said to be good friends, it's the best way.. you tell me not to be silly... maybe it's juz a crush.. but my heart will still aches... I'm such a silly gal...

Birthdays...

2004-10-09T23:00:00.000-07:00

Had a really busy day... first went out with Angie to bugis... At first she wanted to make things difficult again... saying Katherine andi were too slow when u got into the train... make her have no seats and had to stand all the way to bugis..
i managed to cool her as usual...
Then by the time i reach home was about 5.50pm... after angie called me tat she reached home... i quickly came out of the house to meet the gang at esplanade.. so i travelled back to Cityhall again.. haha... I met Germaine and Carmen there first at thai express...
Then Jia li and Chen Hui came.. we ordered.. wings and calamari. Then Charissa came with her friend Jean. Both all dressed up nicely to go clubbing after dinner..
Germs had green curry laksa, Carmen had omelette rice..
Jia li had Thai fried noodles, Chen hui some extra spicy beef curry rice.
Char had Fish soup noodles and her friend beef noodle. I found myself satisfied with my chicken curry laksa.. We took a lot of pics. too Dun worry i will develop for ya...

Then after a group photo i rushed home at 8.30pm.. haha away i fly off... haha..
Racing against time, praying that God will give me some time, anyway i reached home at 9.15pm.. Phew.. she didn't suspect.. But i had an hour and a half Long Chat with her.... Wow... haha... better than she knowing..

Then had started msging Your Friend. then.. after a night..

Hopefully

2004-10-08T12:12:00.000-07:00

Hey ppl, this is my new blog... really hope it will work well... *cross your fingers.