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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Hey ppl,
Its been another while... been sending my resumes, looking for a job. Went for interviews. And actually got a JOB but i rejected the offer becos it was rotating shifts....and the pay wasn't that attractive...

So took up a 3-week part time job for now. Everyday 9-6pm doing boring office work... my eyes are really tired just looking at the computer screen. Can come to msn to chat with me if ya free. I may sneak into msn to chat. But not when the boss is around.

Well, didn't really get to meet up with him since school end. He got a part time job and so we only meet once a week. No difference from when NS begins... I told him not to regret when it really begins... Haha... but hopefully we will get some time together b4 he goes in.

I was just wondering to myself... how far can someone's understanding go... how far can u give in to someone... how far is the limit... how far can u continue to hurt yourself b4 something happens? haha that's a lot of how far... some things been happening that is making me have such thoughts. but i guess the answer will arise eventually.& i hope when the answer arrives it wun be a disappointment.

How can u give in to someone so much that is hurt yourself? That u still have to pretend its not hurting u? haha... is it being matured? Or just being silly...

I always had such a dream that one day when i wake up everything will be solved and everything will fall into place. That someone will help me solve them haha... wat a wishful thinking... but now its not the time anyway to solve anything... Well, i hope everyone can fall into their desired places eventually... :) LOve ya lots! Nite nite!

geez! i saw the RAinb0w* ^0- @ 1:00 AM
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Saturday, February 25, 2006

Hey ppl,
I'm back again... haha well, been having exams. Really must force myself to study.... luckily i am forced out of my house to study in another quieter and less distraction place. If not i really dunno how i am going to study. If stay at home sure will be distracted by so many things.... ;P

Then, ty & i made a stupid rule. that we are not going to meet until we finish exams on 3rd march. hai... its his bdaay too haha so not too bad. We are not suppose to call each other also. Just 10 sms a day. However..... that is too much for a new couple. Haha, so in the end still got talk on the phone every other day.

These week has really been so taxing on me that will have giddy spells... hai... i need so super powerful tonics. :P okok, that's all for now.

Sometimes, ironically when u are happy, there's nothing to write about.....

JIA YOU FOR THE LAST 2 Papers!!

geez! i saw the RAinb0w* ^0- @ 5:50 AM
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Thursday, December 22, 2005

我从来没有想过
爱情会变得如此无奈
是命运吗?

难道难过
是上天的安排
没办法
天天的每天的心思
到底由谁来陪

我诚心你诚意
但周围扰人环境
始终让我们无法
在这里自由相连

我精彩你发呆
两颗心不安的摇摆
应该有的未来
是否真的那么的无奈
期待舍不得再伤害
看着你哀愁要我如何
怎么承受面对

不得不爱
否则快乐从何而来
不得不爱
否则悲伤从何而来

不得不爱
否则我就失去未来
好象什么尤其不能自己很失败
可是每天都过的精彩

天天都需要你爱
我的心思由你猜
I Love You
我就是要你让我每天都精彩

天天把它挂嘴边
到底什么是真爱
I Love You
到底有几分说得比想像更快
会不会有一点无奈
会不会有一点太快
可是你给我的爱
让我养成了依赖
心中充满爱的节拍

geez! i saw the RAinb0w* ^0- @ 5:43 AM
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All I Want for Christmas.... is U....

Hahax..... well but it seems impossible cos we leave so far from each other. Well, i'll be going over to my aunt's house for X'mas. Will be keeping my penang cousin company for saturday onwards. So dunno when will ever get to meet him again... Well, wat to do..... maybe we are really not very fated to be.... Hope God is not making a fool of us... So sick of it... having to leave so far apart... wish that i didn't love u so then it would be much easier. But well its too late :) Ahhhxxx......

Just had Chalet on tuesday. WOw, its been a long time since i actually went and stayed in one. IT was pretty fun with all the games and food. WAhhhh... we really ate a lot. I feel i've ate a lot. But lose to Germsy man.... She made sambal SAUSAGE for me.... its so yummy.... then it rained in the middle of the night.. so stupid. Then for the next 24hrs i got a little grumpy. I was very irritable. WHen i dun get enough sleep that's wat happens, so better dun annoy me during the period. Hahaha... but after that i was fine.

I went to Mirelle's house to beautify her this afternoon. She had a dinner to attend. Haha pretty proud of my work. SHe looked real pretty. Did her hair and make up. Later after her dinner she's picking me up to go over her house to sleepover. So cool rite? A gal's nite!!! HAha... well but we are good gals, wun go clubbing or drinking... hmmm dunno wat we will be doing also... haha maybe have a hearty talk. Then tml going out to celebrate Kasey's Bday.

Wow... seems like i will be very busy. Will be missing him over wherever i am.... Sadx.... Who knows maybe can get to meet him next week. I will bring my cousin to meet him next week :) :) :) HAHA...

Well EVERYONE OUT THERE MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR! (just in case i dun update my post, so all in advance :P)

geez! i saw the RAinb0w* ^0- @ 4:07 AM
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Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Hello, haha no news means good news... ever hear of that.

Haha sorry disappeared for like 12 days. Not too bad after my 1 year disappearance. Anyway the past week has been great.

Managed to go out with my best fren, Wei Chieh just because he's gf was out of town... hai... wat to do. But it's okay managed to catch up pretty good. He has always been there for me, even if we dun communicate all that often. Great to have ya as a pal!!!

Then went out with tai yuan too. Even though it was only a few hours, we had a great time on sunday. Went out shopping and he bought me a bag again. He's really showering me with gifts... Haha i always wanted a backpack. and really like this back pack. Hahaha, even though it makes me look like a high sch gal. Well... who cares... :P That day we were both lost at to getting wat gifts for each other on Christmas. So just wandered around he bought the bag for me and i treated him to starbucks cause he wouldn't let me get him something.

Oh... then its a fresh week today... and i'm already so stressed with REPORTS. Especially fyp.... its really killing us. must hand in draft hopefully by thursday. How to..?? We've got 2 quizzes this week lei...

Plus my cousin arrived from penang yesterday. She staying at my aunt's house now. Really wish to go over and see her. But tied down by so many sch work. how to go over. I really need a computer to do my work.

And i can foresee a storm coming my way. About juggling my time with my godma, cousin, tai yuan, FYP, reports, assignments, quizzes.... Ahhhhh.... *breathe in & breathe out..... Pray!

Well, i really hope all of us will be able to survive through our year 3!!! JIA YOU PPL!!! Looking forward to our chalet!

P.S: Thanks Wei chieh for volunteering for get me dinner when i said i was hungry. U are a great papa!

geez! i saw the RAinb0w* ^0- @ 3:13 AM
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Thursday, December 01, 2005

Wow... can u believe it. I actually managed to meet him 6 days in a row (even though didn't meet him today). Haha maybe that's y my blog was a little quiet this few days. So actually making some noise does help. But after all that i really feel we've grown closer again. We've managed to solve this prob. and learn from it. Feel so much closer to him. I managed to take a look at his training too. Finally i feel i'm part of his life in a way.. :P

I'm glad at where we are now :) Thanks for all the support my frens have shown me.

And thanks dear for getting me my new shoes after my poor old brown little shoe spoil.... i'm really happy with my new shoes.. however, i dun seem to have any to match them.... have to change/ add another style into my cupboard again. Haha.... i have formal office wear, to lady-gal wear, to smart casual wear, to tough wear and now coming soon sporty wear. The world is such a confusing place. People around always wants us to change to be the way they are comfortable with. How long can u play the role of a chameleon? Adapting to different ppl, different situations??? But wait a minute, isn't that wat we've been doing all our life? Haha... wat i'm i talking about?? I dunno okay i'll just stop babbling.... Just finish compiling Micro E for HOTA. haha so last minute.

See ya in sch ppl!

geez! i saw the RAinb0w* ^0- @ 6:16 AM
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Sunday, November 27, 2005

Just like the lyrics of the song " Even if you cannot hear my voice, I'll be right beside you dear..." That's wat i want to let u know.

Today i'm glad u came over to study at my house, even though my whole family was home. Real brave of u... Actually it isn't that scary... Even i can do that y can't u? Haha... Thanks for buying lunch over today.

Was pretty mad at you for making me feel so down these few days/weeks.... Then was a little cold to you today even though u came down. Cause i know the prob will still be there... But just now when u told me u would give up something u love to do for me... I was really happy... That's all i needed. I dun want u to give up something u love to do. That's all i needed to know. Thanks... I wun make any more noise anymore from now on.... :) U happy I happy.

I believe God will plan our path for us. No worries! ANy way, i feel better already. Flu bug is leaving me alone finally... Thanks Wei Chieh for your advice and Help! Friends FOrever! Your my best BUddy dude!!! (xka) ;P

geez! i saw the RAinb0w* ^0- @ 9:20 PM
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Saturday, November 26, 2005

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time
I doI know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear

We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

geez! i saw the RAinb0w* ^0- @ 10:46 PM
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Hey ppl, sorry my previous blogs have been a little upsetting... just to let ya know i've talked to him and let him know how i feel.... Hopefully the same prob wun arise again... But i think he still dun get wat i mean..

Is it he can't give me wat i want or i'm I asking for too much? He has time for anything else in the world but for me... Maybe he just dunno how to priortise his time. Well nvm that, caught a flu bug. Came home early from Angie's house to rest, been taking FEBS- its really good. Dun like the taste of Panadol... Hopefully can recover by monday.

See ya in sch ppl!

geez! i saw the RAinb0w* ^0- @ 10:09 PM
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